Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Tada blog a new

So my blog has recovered and in tribute to my darling oldest daughter, she got to pick out my layout. Yes it's hollister. I think I was able to wear hollister clothing like when i was two. It is crazy..but she is a fan. So tada. At least it is something!!

I will had to readd my blog roll, but heh at least we are some place other then plain white space! I am so color with all the crayons type of girl. Actually it would be markers or color pencils..horribly i hate the smell of crayons. nothing drives me further insane then a box filled with crayons that has been closed for a while. YUCK!

So fall tv season is in full swing and thank goodness for three tivos. really it is just two, since tyra gets her own..but who puts four shows on at the same time! I don't know when i am going to find the time to actually watch it all! OH WELL. I caught chuck, life and the hills today so that's a start.

So today I went to lunch with some fantabulous people, but then I was shocked to learn that some people cut cost in the weridest ways. One family turns their air conditioning off. SERIOUSLY. We live in Florida...i mean SUNNY florida and they decide that air conditioning is too expensive. OMW! I could not even sorta imagine! It's not like we live in New England..which FYI has no air con in housing, but seriously! What does it send your electricity bill up. I am so the type of person that will rather live poor and comfortable then bank the extra few dollars and sweat like pigs. I just don't get it...which make me think..there must be a few other ways i could save money..but really isn't my happiness worth it? Like....

1. The DVR's. Okay yes, it is a bit extreme, but we are TV people. Though lately I am hardly watching it...who knows what the heck is going on...

2. Bottle water. I know I know but my children and I cannot drink from the tap. I HATE it.

3. High speed internet...seriously I blog and try uploading pictures via dial up.

4. Organic products. I have three girls and #1 gained tons of weight and height in this incredible surge. With two girls left to spurt we are not taking any chances.

5. Vera Bradley. Okay seriously I have been SO good! I have not bought anything for a very very long time. Probably since before my birthday! I am doing so well!

6. Papercrafting..seriously I save my husband enough money last year..this year I plan to make it all up!

7. Public school..oh this year we went from Private to public..i am saving tons of money per month!

8. Gymboree..okay I agree there are things that I could buy from other stores, but buying clothes from Gymboree or the Gap last the girls forever. I will not knock something that cost $30 and you can wear for 4 years!

9. Shower less...seriously I shower two or three times a day. I can't change that. We live in Florida! I have made the girls shower together..that should help...right???

10. Shop the commissary! Okay now in theory this is great. One the commissary never has really what i want. Organic and other..plus the base is a good 20 or so minutes from me and that would be a gas cost...so publix, target, wal mart, and wini dixie it is!


Monday, September 29, 2008

What happened to my blog

So I am not sure what happened to my blog..but I don't have the minutes to try and fix it today...SO if one of my lovely friends wants to have at it..email me and I will send you my password!

Let's see life have been basically the same. Nanea lately just hasn't been sleeping well..I totally think she has sleep apnea. I know I know the medical person is totally creeping out of me, but she has HUGE tonsils, and she just hasn't been herself. I hate to make her have surgery to have them removed, but something is going on with the girl.

Yesterday she decided four am would be her wake up time! What, at first I thought it was just a dark 6 am. It is her normal time to get up. I lifted the blanket and tucked her in next to me. Common morning procedures on the weekend. We were lying there talking and then I happen to see the clock. I was like, Nanea, it is far to early for you to be up. So I told her she could stay here, but she needed to go back to bed. Now I hate to sleep with people. I know I know, how can you be that way. I get that all the time. I don't even share a blanket with Ryan. I don't know what it is, but I don't like to touch while I am asleep. Which is so funny cause it drives Ry insane, but he deals with it.

Anyway..so nanea was moving..then rolling over..then softly singing to herself. All these things, driving me insane. I finally sent her to go and lie on the floor, and I turned the tv on. Now I am the type of person that can't sleep if my children are awake! (Oh when will my husband get here!) So of course I am fading in and out to PBS Sprout. At least it was not that Dora Halloween movie again! UGGGH! But then around eight am the cranky witch arrived. I knew it was going to happen. Everything was driving her insane. Tray beat her to the breakfast table. Traysea touched her blanket. The toothpaste is too hot. She doesn't want to watch this. I finally put her back into bed at 11. I was suppose to go to church with Keri...I had to cancel cause of her crazyness and my lack of ability to keep my eyes open. Then I had to cancel on Kelly cause I just didn't think Nanea could do it. At 1230 she came out..I don't know if she slept, but she seemed in better spirits.

Today at two am, she tried to sneak into my bed. I don't know what it is, but I totally can hear my children awake. My house is bigger and I still can hear their door open. It is weird..so I hear her walk across the house and open my door...I know I scared her, but I told her to turn around and go back to her own bed. There was some whining and I will even say a small fit, but I told her if I have to stand up and walk her back to her bed, I will be very unhappy.

Want to know something funny...my child doesn't just climb into my bed. No that is far to easy, she brings her pillow, her water cup, blanket and her stuffed toy entourage with her. What kid does that? When Traysea use to climb in, it was just her and her water. But no, my third child always seems to be the one that makes it interesting. She is my content test to everything I am! I love her! I do, but she is the one that is going to break me!

Anyway, I have to finish getting my house in order and then I am off to lunch with friends!

Saturday, September 27, 2008

A day of grinding my teeth

Oh I get irritated all the time. Most times I can totally just breath in and out..but other days it just eats and eats at me. So today I get stuck behind someone who at the very last second realizes he has been sitting at a green light..and leaves with enough time for me to catch the light. Such a superstar it is unreal. Yes, I should have honked the horn, but I hate horn honking. I realize it was an accident and I have probably done something just as genesis as this guy..but it got me to think about just the thinks that I push all my buttons! So today...

Ten things I cannot stand!

* Parents who don't pay attention to their children. I realize at mom's groups and things like that, part of the reason you are there is to socialize...but you still need to supervise your child!

* People who have an entire cart filled with items in the express check out. Oh how I long for the day when the cashier tells them to take a hike. I think I pick that line just to see if it will happen. But seriously how difficult is it to get that 20 items doesn't mean an entire cart?

* When my children ask for a certain something to eat and i make it for them, and then they decide that they don't want that anymore. Oh you will eat it and you will love it!

* When the person in front of you going thru the door doesn't make any effort to hold it for you. I find this just a basic courtesy. It is insane how people are so unaware or just don't give a shit!

* That car in the parking lot that was parked to purposely take up two spaces so not to get dinged. If you feel this strongly about your car and want to park it way at the end of the lot more power too you, if you are that worried but yet still park close to the store it just makes me want to squeeze into the space next to you and let my kids repeatedly open the doors into your car.

* Parents that let their kids run around parties unsupervised. Like random children you don't know come up to you and stick their hand in your plate. OH my goodness...my children don't even get to do that! I hate yucky fingers!

* Spam emails! Seriously!

* Washing my car and then it rains or my kids track in all kinds of stuff!

* I hate when I am dreaming about eating something and I go to get it, and discover it is gone. If it is the kids, no big deal..but if it is Ryan..OH I hate him!

*Unsolicited phone calls. No I don't want to donate to the Florida's sheriff's department. Seriously I care, just not that much!

*Kids at soccer that do not run. Oh I can't even start to go there on this one. If your kid doesn't run, doesn't like to run or just doesn't want to play..please don't sign them up for soccer!

I am sure there is so many more things to be irritated with..it must just been my mood today! Hope your Saturday was a pleasant one!

Friday, September 26, 2008

The weather and grey's party

So if you don't know, I live in SUNNY Florida. Leaving here in the south south is a bit different from living in South Carolina, but not by much! So this week, for the most part, we were blessed with fall weather. OH, I love it. The girls and I started pulling out our light sweaters and knee high socks. But today I heard that this weekend is suppose to be 90! I am pouting..my girls play soccer this weekend at 9 and 1030, of course just in time to watch my girls roast like the piglets they are! OH Sigh..how I wish we actually got a state with some cool days. OH well right, I guess I could be somewhere we it is constant raining! I am pouting right now. Ry is probably laughing at me right now...the girl from Hawaii that wants cool weather!

Anyway, so last night was the Grey's Anatomy premier. Back in SC we use to cuddle at each others houses and watch fun shows together. We use to rotate houses cause one day my husband wouldn't be home..and the other day someone else husband wouldn't. So it use to be so much fun. SO I headed to Keri's, cause I don't have a couch, but I do have a 13 year old, to watch the two hour season opener. I have to say I loved it but I also hated it. It wasn't as emotional straining as I wanted it to be. But I got to spend time with Keri and Brooke and I didn't have to watch it alone!

OH and something else funny...yesterday I went to Adam and Eve. Which is basically a porn store. Nothing distasteful. Just your run of the mill, run out of lube go get it, type of place. So Keri and I totally have gone before, but the girl we went with was her first time. Now I am probably much less reserve then most people about sex. PEOPLE I had sex..I have three children and am married for almost eight years, sex occures. Not to mention all those reckless years before...so sex to me is totally run of the mill conversation..but this girl...she was not really ready. I wasn't sure she was going to make it out of there. And of course I ask questions. I mean the girls that works there, I am sure, have heard much worst. I mean seriously she is a clerk at a sex store. She must have some kind of "working" knowledge. Right? It was priceless though. I go with sex store "virgins". Sometimes they can't even say anything they are so embarrassed. I always say if you can't say the word sex 10 time out loud without bursting into a fit of the giggles, maybe you shouldn't be having it!

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

My letter to Santa

Dear Santa:
I know it is barely fall, but I figuired I better start my letter to you early..cause it is going to be a very very very expensive year! If you need to get ryan's email so you two can coordinate what to get me, it's easy...it's just like mine!

Anyway, Santa, I have been the best girl this year. I did all my chores without my mom having to tell me. I made sure to clean my room and make my bed everyday. I also did a lot of other chores around the house. I was a good girl and went to work this year and tried my very best to keep my family stable and happy.

So Santa I think I should get one of these for Christmas.
My dream craft room
I know it seems like a lot, but I was a very very good girl! I promise to spend hours upon hours creating in there. I will use it everyday! I promise to love it and pick up after myself! I promise to keep it in order in between projects. It would really be perfect for my new job coming up!

Secondly Santa, along with my new job coming up thing, I would like one of these.
My dream camera
I promise to use it with tons of tender care! I promise to use it everyday and be so very wonderful to it! I promise to tuck it in with me at night. Did I mention it would be perfect for my new job?!

I know these are two very large ticket items, but I trust that you can call Ryan and resolve every issue in getting me these things! I have faith in you Santa! I have already given up on having more children..can't I get this instead!

Thank you in advance Santa,
ronee malama
yulee, fl

Awesome friends!

So, I am husband less.....well I have one, he and I just don't share the same home address right now! At least he is not under the water, and really just a phone call away! SO I needed an oil change and Steve loves cars. So he changed my oil tonight. I am SO grateful! Also we ate dinner! We hit downtown Fernadina and went to this mexican place. It was nice..i loved my Fajita salad...and it was totally a great time! The Blonski's are great..and what makes my life perfect is that they both should have been from Hawaii. They both went to UH Hilo, where they met..and long for a return to the islands. AND lucky them, in three weeks they are spending ten days on the Big Island...WOW, I am super jealous..but heh, I just went home! Right, I can't be too mad!

SO I am totally grateful to have Keri and Steve just minutes from my house! BUT also to have kids that my two can play with! There is yelling, fighting, screaming, but nothing totally out of control. Which is fabulous when Keri and I just want to hang out! Plus at dinner, they were perfect! I have to love children that can do that!

Anyway...so I am still on the hunt on what I should be reading...HELP ME! Felicia read Midnight Sun last night, Latisha a bit before, and Keri I think days ago...Stephanie Meyers better get on it and finish that book and get it on some bookstores shelf! And of course of course, she stops the book right at Edward and Bella's first kiss! Witch! Totally uncalled for. And I think she secretly loves the fact that her book is in such high demand that she might be playing this game with her publishers! HORRIBLE! Just horrible!

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Bunco and stuck in front of my computer!!

So the quick answer is NO I am not finish Midnight Sun! I hate it..I feel like the SSSLLLLOOOWWWEEESSSTTT person reading this stupid thing. I tried Vaiva, the print screen doesn't work..and I am might have to take Keri Blonski's advice and go mobile and take my laptop everywhere I go. I mean seriously who would think I was crazy sitting in a doctors office with my laptop out. I would feel SUPER important until someone noticed I was just ready some book about vampires and werewolves. I know I know, Keri and I go back and forth about just how obsessed we are. At least I am not searching online looking up what kind of fabulous cars they have. In Keri's defense she's into cars....

So today was blue sticker bunco. It was interesting, but I love hanging out with my friends. BUT we totally had to jet out of there, cause Keri needed to go and see Steve, her husband, on base. So we made a quick stop..had Taco Bell and then i ran out to go and get my girls from school....

Then we went on a surf shop excursion. We hit two, on the island here..and they both were pretty shady. Now I am a girl who knows a surf shop! Makes sorta sad..we have always lived in a "beach" town and have been able to get some decent surf wear. But here, where I basically live on the beach, they both are ho hum. Disappointing, but at least i still have a mom at home in Hawaii who can totally hook me up when needed!

Anyway..life is boring..and I have to go..since I am still 64 pages away from the end of Midnight Sun! Catch you guys later!

Monday, September 22, 2008

OH boy the circus!

First of all, I have to say..I am a winner! We all know this....I made sure to have my camera in the sprint out to the car to leave just an half an hour before I wanted to be there. I wanted to be there at six cause it started at seven and we live about 40 minutes away.

Anyway we arrive with time to spare...though I had to drive around like a fool and find where it was. But I got to tour the campus and I have to say North Florida looks like a great school. SO we get in line and wait for the doors to open..and we enter. SO it's the gym....now I never expected Ringling Brothers, but you know..a bit more then I got! But can you complain about free. My friend Kelly drove all the way down to Mayport's USO and got them for me.

They had pony rides before the show started, so Nanea, our pony lover, needed to have a ride. So $7 and 15 minutes later, she is happy girl. The girls ate hot dogs and snow cones. NO misty not the ones like you and i love! But all the normal. Cotton Candy and popcorn. So of course as we walk in the door at 1030pm, Nanea throws up. Now if you know me for a second I don't do throw up. Oh and did I mention her snow cone was cherry??? Thank goodness! So every girl is awake now so I send them all in teeth brushing and rinsing off in the shower. I can't sleep if I don't shower, so of course I feel the girls are the same way...but anyway..so by 1115, everyone is in the bed asleep. While I am up cleaning carpets and kitchen floors. Cursing my child. She was four steps from the trash can! So since I was already cleaning the carpets and teh kitchen floor, I figured I might as well clean the dining room floor and the floor in the kids room. Insanity I tell you! So at one am, I am in the shower getting ready for bed..but then I remembered that Keri called me and told me that Stephanie Meyers, author of the Twlight series, had released more pages for her Midnight Sun development. It is a spin off of the Twlight series but from Edwards point of view.

oh if haven't read it yet...it is a lovestory of a girl and a boy who happens to be a vamprie. I know it seems child like, but the love story is SO awesome. You will want every husband to read it!
Check it out here

Okay and the back story on that is that someone stole this and put it up on the internet. So Stephanie decided to release it for viewing..but you have to sit there and read all 200 some odd pages because it is protected..so I can't take it with my to Tyra's 2 and half hour doctor appointment today...NO cause I can't print it off....

Anyway..enough blabbering..it is BUNCO time tomorrow..So I am a baking fool helping Kelly, since she is hosting. My banana bread isn't cooperating. My bananas weren't over ripe yet..but I used them anyway..so cross your fingers..hopefully my blueberry bread comes out..I was planning for muffins, but I only had a enough cups for my girls...so I had to use it as bread instead. I do have apples so I am thinking apple cinnamon bread...I dunno!

Anyway..hope your day was great..I am blabbbling...

Rainy days

So here in the south we are "blessed" with rainy summers. It is interesting something about the heat and the pressure send the clouds, moon, and the stars into some crazy loop and therefore are rewarded with thunderstorms and heat lighting. I can't say I mind it. Though if it hinders my life..or keeps the girls inside when they want to go out..of course they I am irritated

So this morning Nanea cruises into my room at 615. I tell that girl and her schedule, it is amazing. Luckily, I could talk her into to cuddling with me this morning. She didn't go back to sleep, but laid still until #2 came drifting in looking for breakfast. So at 7 we are out of bed and getting breakfast on the table. Then minutes later here comes Tyra. Shocked I ask, do we have something planned today? The girls laughed..just the circus mom.

Anyway the rain stopped around nine and it turned out to be a nice day. I kept staying out my windows wishing I was slightly movtivated to get out there and cut the grass..but of course my laziness won and I cleaned carpets and both bathrooms today. I also had the girls pick up their bedroom and playroom. So the house is back in working order.

As I am typing this..it is 1am and it's raining..so the sound is calling me to my bed! I will blog about the circus in the morning!!

Saturday, September 20, 2008

A day of 5's

So we had soccer this morning..so it was a morning filled with high fives. Nanea is #55..and then I got this in my inbox...it must be a sign that I need to have 5 children...;)

5 things I was doing 10 years ago....
1. I was dating Ryan.
2. I was playing basketball
3. driving the civic
4. I was living in Hawaii
5. I was coaching at Kalakaua..i think!

5 things on my to-do list today....
1 Finish all the laundry
2 Have all the laundry put away
3 Make dinner
4 Call keri since she is a driving fool!
5 upload new songs to my ipod

5 snacks I enjoy.....

1 life saver lollipops
2 salsa and chips
3 pumpkin spice latte from starbucks
4 a&W rootbeer
5 ice cream sandwichs

5 places I have lived

1 Florida
2 Charleston, SC.
3 Newport, RI
4 Reston, VA
5 Honolulu, HI

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire....
1 Hire a house keeper..not a nanny..cause I am never giving up that job!
2 buy my husband's navy contract out
3 build a house that I was in love with...and my parents would have a house on the same land, but far enough that they could call it their own!
4 we would rock disneyworld!
5 totally get a yard crew

5 bad habits....
1 i bite my nails
2 i put off house cleaning
3 avoid yard work
4 gettting caught up in the small stuff
5 jabber jaw!

5 jobs I've had (or currently have)
1 super mom to three wonderful girls
2 rockstar wife to ryan alden
3 office manager for a dental group
4 the all purpose person at The Pink House
5 Design team for a scrapbooking company

What people might not know about me
1 I don't always have it down pack!
2 That really I just want to be a lazy bum
3 That I hate sand but love the ocean
4 That I had some really naughty years
5 That I had a thing for firemen!

No, my husband isn't a fireman! I know you would think that he would have been. Before Ryan I went on a run of just firemen. I know I know I know. I have issues. It's something about them...I know every female is out there nodding! Anyway..I think I am going to ride this five wagon out till the wheels fall off!

Friday, September 19, 2008

It didn't go over so well

So the baby thing didn't go over too well with the other participant!
I think I actually heard Ry pass out when I mentioned it!
But I love him, and I totally understand where he is coming from.
I am totally stemming from a pure heartfilled mothery place within.
When I close my eyes, I see my daughters, and hopefully my sons, tucked around me having movie night in my living room.
But he on the other hand sees a much larger car, more gas, 5 college tuitions, five cars, five weddings, and all the drama that goes with carting five kids to five different places!
Okay Mr. Practical.
My heart still hurts, but in all things, I know he is right. (Shhh..don't tell him that!)
Really it would be starting over.
This is the same space that I have between #1 and 2.
Tyra was five turning six when we had Traysea
Then 13 months later we had Nanea
Nanea is currently 5..so if by some miracle I concieve and carry to full term
then that would put us at July of '09 and Nanea will have just turned 6.
I would hate to have them all grow up seperately like that.
My youngest two would barely know Tyra.
She would be a whole 14 then 15 years older then.
The sibling connection would just not be there.
But the time the younger two even knew what was happening
she would be ready to be off to college!
So I guess I am going to have to side with Mr. Practical. (Shh...don't tell him)
So I am just going to focus on the positive
just where is my cup..because today I totally need a reminder!!! Right Vaiva!
SO...let's try for ten!!!
1. I have three beautiful healthy daughters! (That is always my number one)
2. I think my three girls are finally starting to get what being sisters are about!
3. It has been cool for two days! YUPPIE!
4. This weekend we have free tickets to the circus! Thanks kelly you are totally a superstar
5. Today I went to target with five children and it was drama free!
6. Today I could be there for a friend in need!
7. Today I had lunch with some new friends!
8. Got a great deal on a lunchbox at target...$2
9. The two babies got their halloween costumes!
10. Today I found out that Misty and I basically the same person!
Thank goodness for my OCD partner!!

Oh ten was easy..let's see if I have 15...

11. I have a husband who has a job that provides for us! Even with the price of gas a million dollars a gallon! Thanks Ry!
12. I have a baby sitter that can be paid with Chocolate covered Strawberries!
13. I have a mom that wants the girls to have Olive Garden for lunch tomorrow, so she slips me some dollars to take them!
14. It was cool enough that my children went outside to play with their friends this afternoon.
15. I have unlimited text messaging. Do you know I sent 2000 messages last month. I know I know..I have issues! Thanks MOM!

So I was able to make it to 15! I am sure there are a few more out there..but I will save those for another day! Overall I am bit down still, but that is cause I am girl that is use to getting what she wants..but I totally see Ry's side that's why we are married. If he didn't provide me that balance we were just skip through life!
Big sigh!

Oh and I forgot..I got this today..and thought it was funny!!!

1. I’ve come to realise that my butt: still no existent..I have feet..ankles..calfs..thighs..legs..then back...sorry guys..

2. I’ve come to realize that when I talk: the world stops..just kidding..sometimes it just too many words!

3. I’ve come to realize that if I love someone: then i will do anything for them

4. I’ve come to realize that I need: to be happy with what i have..and deal!

5. I’ve come to realize that I’ve lost: my family expansion battle

6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when: mr. practical appears!

7. I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk: then Synder's must be in town

8. I’ve come to realize that money: is required to function but necessary for happiness!

9. I’ve come to realize that my mother: the best mom anyone could ask for!

10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll probably always be: OCD and over protective. It is what I am!

11. I’ve come to realize that I have a crush on: Channing Tatum. He is all of what..four..help me!!!

12. I’ve come to realize that the last time I cried was: yesterday, I was angry. It's how I cope!

13. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone: is my friend!

14. I’ve come to realize that when I wake up in the morning: It is always a start of a new day!

15. I’ve come to realize that before I go to sleep at night: I get a call from my mom!

16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking about: coming to terms with the right choices!

17. I’ve come to realize that babies: are always precious..but i have three pretty rockstar daughters and that is more then enough!

18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on myspace: i get nosy and start clicking around!

19. I’ve come to realize that today I will: well today is basically over..so tomorrow i will start to deal with the choices. it is what it is...and that it is!

20. I’ve come to realize that tonight I will: sleep alone

21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow I will: be the best coach i can be..and maybe sneak in some OG lunch!

22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to: be the super mom i imagine myself to be!

23. I’ve come to realize that who is most likely to repost this is: some of my blogger friends that like to play fun games!

24. I’ve come to realize relationships: that are worth always make you feel like a superstar. I love my lifetime friends!

25. I’ve come to realize love: is the best present you can give!

26. I’ve come to realize my best guy friend: is Sean Jacob. But that is not new news...he is my go to guy friend. I know that sometimes that my husband hates that..but he knows I need to bounce things off another guy, before I say something to me..and really Sean's a girl..shhh...don't tell him!

27. I’ve come to realize my best girl friend: is my mom!

28. I’ve come to realize food: will always be my weakness..but live in moderation

29. I’ve come to realize that when I was a girlfriend: that i wasn't girlfriend material. I am still such horrible girlfriend material! good thing i became awesome wife material!

30. I’ve come to realize girls and boys: always have their opposite. There is a someone out there for everyone!

31. I’ve come to realize over the summer: we really can pack in tons of things in two and a half months!

32. I’ve come to realize heartbreak: is a learning process required to grow. It sucks..it hurts..you wallow..but ultimately...you survive!

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Plans for the future

Things are unfolding here in the Malama-Auger household. All I can say is that I got a hint at a job offer in the papercrafting world, and if I get it..I will be SUPER excited! It is a little out of my box, but still in it. So I am totally excited. But it has made me think about the future, and what I really want! I totally want that job, so cross your fingers..it won't start till the next calendar year, but that is totally not a big deal..but is that all I want. My mom says I should write. I always have loved books and living in that book world..but me a writing..I mean seriously, have you read my blog. But she said that is what editors are for. I would love to come up with a great character and just carry them through life. Sorta like Ramona or Junie B. Even Harry or Bella. I love the idea, but what a huge huge leap. Plus the rejection would hurt! But now I am thinking about it.

So more about things I want in the future, another baby! I know I know, ronee you are 32 about to be 33, another baby..but yes, I would. But I don't like even numbers...so four would really mean five. Plus I would want them to have a partner. I know it is insane..but did you watch that movie Dan in Real Life. If you haven't, you have to have to see it! Just saying the title always makes me laugh. In the movie, the family all comes to the grandparents lake house and spend however long there..just bundled together. Cousins tucked into a bedroom. Huge lunches and breakfasts. Talent nights...all of it. I want that. I want a dining room table full of my children and then their spouses and then my grandchildren. I want that. Not that three beautiful daughters can't provide me that, but i'd love to have five children..and they each have how ever many children and then I would need a kids table and an adult table at thanksgiving and Christmas dinnners! sigh! As much as I hate the fighting between the kids. The lugging around the baby bag..the packing for children...I want it. Memorie is totally in this boat with me. She might not want two more..but she wants another baby.

I know it is insane! A new job, a book and babies. Insane! Totally..right now though I am SO bored. I wish I liked to work in my yard since I have time to do that now. Anyway..just me looking forward!!

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Happy Birthday Hunny

Today is Ryan's 28th birthday. Yes Ryan is younger then me! I have worked all these years raising my husband...that's always my joke. Not that he ever really reads my blog! But you know..just in case! I had to remind him that it was his birthday! Boys and their birthdays..I guess they don't care! anyway..so I am just rambling today...here's a fun one

48 random things

1. Do you like blue cheese? i can't say i like it!
2. Have you ever smoked heroin? of course not..I have lived my life drug free!
3. Do you own on a gun? no guns are in our house!
4. What flavor do you add to your drink at sonic? Strawberry limeade..fabulous..i should see what tyra wants to eat for lunch
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? of course not!
6. What do you think of hot dogs? total sin food..but i love it!
7. Favorite Christmas movie? Santa Clause
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Fluffy Coffee..i need some now!
9. Do you do push ups?oh my word i am a leg type of girl
10. What's your favorite piece of jewelry? my earrings..but lately i have miss placed them
11. Favorite hobby? photography..i love taking pictures! papercrafting is my world but i think my favorite hobby is sports in general!
12. Do you have A.D.D.? no..but you would think i do!
13. What's one trait you hate about yourself? I talk far far too much!
14. Middle name? really..let's not go there!
15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment? my eye still hurts! which panera? and im starving!
16. Name 3 things you bought yesterday? gas! that's all i bought yesterday..oh and tyra's filling!
18. Current worry? how long it will take to get my hair done!
19. Current 'hate' right now? I normally do not hate anything..but I hate that I can't buy sour patch kids with just the red ones.! In Hawaii I can!
20. Favorite place to be? surrounded by my family and/or friends!
21. How did you bring in the New Year? watching the ball drop with ry and the girls!
22. Where would you like to go? New England for fall! Hawaii..as vacations at home are always divine..disneyworld!
24. Do you own slippers? like 15 pairs!
25. What's your nickname? ronee...donkey girl...ron ron
26. What year would you go back in time to? The 50s- seemed like they had fun in the poodle skirts and all 60's so i can be free! 90's cause I had tons of fun!
27. Can you whistle? yes
28. Favorite color? brown
29. Would you be a pirate? totally..but i have work on getting a shower installed on the boat
30. What songs do you sing in the shower? lately when I do sing..it is with you..from chris brown!
31. Favorite girl's name? tyra, traysea, and trysha..duh! if we had another girl her name would be tyleygh raychel
33. What's in your pocket right now? i am pocketless
34. Last thing that made you laugh? lilly bug..she's a goofy one!
35. Most wonderful job you ever had? the job i currently have...oh and being the parent to my daughters
36. Worst injury you've ever had? c sections..yuck!
37. Remember your first kiss? i do!
38. How many TVs do you have in your house? 5
39. Who is your funniest friend? one friend that is the funniest..oh i can't pick just one!
40. How many dogs do you have? zero..i have a husband and three daughters..
41. Does someone have a crush on you? hopefully he is still crushing!
42. What is your favorite movie(s)?: really..i love august rush..i loved what happens in vegas..i could go on for a very very long time!
43. What is your favorite candy? red sour patch kids
44. Favorite Sports: like just one..basketball..volleyball..soccer...softball we could go on and on
45. Your favorite meal? anything located just in hawaii!
46. What were you doing 12 AM last night? being awoken by text..my friends forget the time difference!
47. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up? ugh..shower time.
48. Do you have any odd habits? i shower before the gym and practice.

Monday, September 15, 2008

Just something quick..cause I am SO exhausted

Heh friends!!! Yes that counts you Memorie and Karrie!
So the girls and I are just back from our fantabulous weekend in Charleston. It's like putting on your comfy pants to go back to somewhere that you could basically call home. Anyway..we spent what little time we had catching up with "family". Hit the OG (olive garden) rode the mexican train aka Mater teeth! Watched my Bunny bowl. Spent time hanging out in Memories fancy backyard till it got too hot and we headed inside! Tyra got to spend the whole weekend with her best friend. Everyone has clean teeth and Tyra has new wires. All in all I think it was an A plus trip..but boy I am tired. Last night I couldn't sleep..damm large screen tvs with great movies. Plus I was up to all hours being texted. Sean hunny, I am on EST...just to remind you! But I am loser and took NO PICTURES this weekend. What the heck kind of papercraft professional am I? No pictures..oh my goodness. But I enjoyed every minute of my weekend! But the girls and I are SO happy to be back in our own home. Me too..I need a quick nap before I keel over! It's my girl time..and if any of you find me on the floor passed out..i'm AB positive!

Friday, September 12, 2008

Rambling..I should be doing the dishes before I leave!!!

Now I have to say, I have the best mom. I can even say, she is my best friend. We have weathered every storm together..hers and mine..and have come out on top. We are similar yet different and most times able to live in harmony. Her opinion and thoughts are the what I seek in most situations. Her love is unconditional. With all my minus..and my pluses she has always held me through it all! Oh and I have screwed up so many times along the way...I have to say! She never wanted to be my best friend. She never tried to be more then just my mother. She never wanted to be the one I confided in if I didn't want to. Most time, she would say..okay that's all I want to know about that. But whenever I fell, stumbled or anything, she always picked me up..dusted me off and told me, you will be fine and we faced it together. An ABSOLUTE God sent!

So of course, I can only hope to be that mother one day. She has set a great example. But in this day and age, I think it takes a village to raise a child. TOTALLY in a military lifestyle. I remember taking notes when I was old enough to know..about what things I would do when I was a mother
tell my children I love them daily
tell them that they can do it anything they work at!
Hug them when they need i
push them when they need it
I remember thinking, well eating in shifts is a great idea..that way..one person is always keeping up with the baby...(thanks Aunty Char and Ray)
Having your house on a schedule doing task daily..helps out huge in the long scheme of thing..(thanks Brenda)
All of those small things help me be better mother!
TIVO helps me be a better mother...NOW don't laugh...I totally remember rushing my children through the bedtime routine cause Prison Break was starting at eight...Now I have no excuse but to read them a story at bedtime..two if it's not too late. Lincoln and Michael will be there for me whenever I am done. I can finish the dishes and then fold laundry while I watch my tivo..commerical free! See told you..if you don't have it get it..you will never be the same!

In the military environment it is huge to learn how to trust people. Sometimes you really can only be in one place at one time..and with three kids on three different soccer teams, you gotta learn to lean (Thanks DF)
Until Charleston, I never had to learn how to lean. In Hawaii, there was always my mom. We need a sitter, we need a car..we need furniture..it was no problem. In Rhode Island, I still just did everything. It was still easy enough. Two babies at home..and only Tyra needed to be places..it worked out pretty perfectly
Arrive Charleston and life just started to change. Well within the last two years I have had to learn how to lean. Luckily I have found me some lifetime friends which make the leaning so much easier. I left Tyra at soccer practice, and someone else would bring her home. HUGE FOR ME! And someone else would take her to games cause the babies had a game at another location. It is amazing how hard it was for me to admit that being a "single" mother just wasn't that easy. But of course I can't let the kids suffer. They all have to play soccer. One cause they want to..and two unless you have something else to do, get your butt out there and run! But it is so hard for me to just to lean. Though I will SO be the mom to tell you, just put your kid in my car..or I will watch her while you take him to football practice. The other way around is so much harder for me! There is a small handful of people that I would let my children go with. Sleepovers are almost non existent outside of my home. Again with only people that I trust COMPLETELY. And I can name all them off the top of my head. I loved DF's excuse, we don't make same day plans. It has so SAVED me on so many occasions. But the two babies have only slept over once at someone elses house. But goodness there are only 5 and 6. But it was Karrie and her house is like my house..no worries..and I know she trust me..cause she let me keep her baby girl of course it was cause she was having surgery..not just for fun!

So an example of my crazyness is someone asked me to carpool. Now seriously in theory it would be a dream come true. She lives three houses down and is also a military wife. BUT I have to see my children go to school. I know I know..one I have to make sure they are on time! Which this lady leaves before me on most days..so I know that my children will always be on time..BUT I need to walk them to class. I know I know..seriously cut the strings..but drive up drop off is just convenient for me. I have to get up a little bit earlier so I can at get presentable. But I need to see them. I walked Tyra to class until she was in the fourth grade. HOW SELFISH RIGHT! Now I absolutely do not knock any other mother that can drive up and drop off her kid. I am just not brave enough yet. But it is my single function in life to make sure my children are safe. I sure they are..but I need to unsure it! I did get brave and let Tyra ride the bus home for awhile in Charleston. But the child had a cel phone and she was 10. It is something about a child with a cel phone that makes me feel so much safer. And we use to wait for her at the bus stop. The kids liked walking there and waiting for her..so it made for a good excuse. But finally that stopped when I heard about an incident that happened on the bus causing Memorie to run after it! I think I was already on shaking ground but that was the straw for me. I had no reason not to be at the school waiting in line for my child to come out. Except my laziness and poor time management. So now...I have let me children go to the car pick up line. I am so sure that they won't want to stay at school. I arrive 20 plus minutes even before school gets out to be fifth or sixth in line so I am waiting on my children and not them waiting on me. Maybe one day I will get over it. There is the two of them, I am sure one day I will be confident enough to let them do things, like walking to class, together without me...but not yet..not today..not this year. My baby is just in kindergarten...Can I at least get to fourth grade? And I just started letting Traysea was to her class alone...it's one half way over and then after I drop off Nanea, I sneak in and check to see if Traysea made it. Which she always does and when she sees me peek in, she waves! I know I know..but I need it! The things my children do just to amuse me!

I am off to Charleston for the weekend to hang with some of my lifetimers! Know that I love you and we will be back Monday!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

September 11th

So everyone is posting about September 11th, but I thought I better too...I totally remember the day..cause we were in Hawaii, my dad called my house at 3am. I was like WTF? Ry was underway and I was pregnant with Traysea....I sat right up and without thought reached for the phone. I remember my dad saying..get up and wake mom up, turn the tv on. Terriorst are attacking. So I did as told and ran down the hallway to my moms room. She would always stay with me while ry got underway....anyway...We both sat on my bed and watched the horrible recount of what happened. Total disbelief.

Fast forward seven years and it still feels like yesterday. Ry and my brother Raym out to sea and not a word from either of them for weeks. It still pulls at my emotions. I was pregnant..my husband was gone for a "short" underway...my brother was on his way back..just all of it. To this day, God bless America or the National Anthem sends me right to tears. I explain to each one of my children..the freedom that we have everyday is not free. Your father pays the price for our freedom everyday! My children know every word to the Star Spangled Banner. And I always make them sing. Though for the past six years he has been at school...It was at sea when they needed him..and everyday he is ready to do whatever it is the Navy requires of him. He may make a face or think it's stupid..but he is always the go to guy! Always..my go to guy!

So thanks honey..and everyone elses son, daughter, father, mother, brother, sister, friend grandfather or grandmother...that makes our freedom possible. I thank you for every night you don't get to sleep at home..or the weeks..months..years you might go sexually deprived (huh kelly) to ensure that me and my children live free!


Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Twlight the series

So about two weeks ago I finished the twilight series. yes I know..just where I have a been but there books were pretty awesome. I can't say they were the bestest ever..but totally engaging and I had to keep reading! I absolutely ignored basically everything and ry got upset that i read the entire time he was unpacking the office..but he had a plan..why would I want to be a part of that craziness. PLUS I had unpacked most of my house..it was someone elses turn.

So November 21st is the premier of the first book's movie.

I am thinking movie night. Dinner and the movie. I miss girl bonding! So anyone up for it..totally..lets go. BUT I sorta feel like you GOTTA read the book first. But I am huge read the book first type of person. The firm, The rainmaker, Harry Potters, all of it I read first. With each Harry Potter movie, I reread the book days before I head off to the movie. I guess I like to compare them in my mind. Who knows.

Let me know if you want to be my movie partner!!!

Monday, September 8, 2008

Today's pondering

So I spent a large part of my day, since we waited forever at the doctors, picking apart my friendships! I know I know, let it go already, but somehow I can't. Maybe because I am in making friends mode..or since my husband isn't here and my kids would love to eat spaghetti every night, that I have time to just think about the weridest things. Anyway..but this survey...helped me out today....

10 years ago....

1) How old were you?
I was 22

2) Where did you go to school?
lcc..i think..yea..i was at lcc and working

3) Where did you work?
i think i was working downtown..wait how old was tyra..i was at st. francis.
i think

4) Where did you live
mililani...with the parents!!

5) Where did you hang out?
i had a kid..i hung out at my house. just kidding basketball games and other nonsense.

6) Did you wear contacts?
yes..i think

7) Who were your favorite friend/s?
mayu and sean

8) How many tattoos did you have?

9) How many piercings did you have?
just my ears

10) Were you Single/Taken/Married/Divorce?
i think i was happily dating. I so didn't want a boyfriend! it is a horrible phase in my life..let's just move on!

14) Any Kids?

*****5 years ago ******

1) How old were you?

2) Where did you go to school?
I don't think I was in school..it was Ry's turn.

3) Where did you work?
just at home! Casa de Malama-Auger

4) Where did you live?
Portsmouth, RI. I think..I think we just had Nanea and moved there the last week in August. If I am remembering correctly. Yea...If 5 years ago was 2003. June 9th 2003 we had Nanea..

5) Did you wear glasses?

7) Who were your best friends?
still mayu and sean

8) How many tattoos did you have?
still zero

9) How many piercings?
still just my ears

10) What car did you drive?
i think he had the truck and the silver car. If we were in Rhode Island already...we got the van a few weeks after we got there

11)Had your heart broken?
not broken..it was just home sick..but i was so busy time flew!

12) Were you Single/Taken/Married/Divorced?

13) Any Kids?
three girlies!

******Today: Sept 8th, 2008******

1) How old are you?

2) What do you do now?
this year i get to play the role of just mom.

3) Where do you live?
Sunny Florida

4) Do you wear glasses?

5) Who are your closest friends?
michelle...karrie...felicia...still mayu..and sean and nicole

6) Do you talk to your old friends?
yea totally!

7) How many piercings do you have?
still just my ears

8) How many tatttoos?
still zero

9) What kind of car do you have?
a van and a camry..but i guess ry drives the camry.

10) Has your heart been broken?

11) Are you mad at anyone right now??
right now..yes!

12) Have Any kids?
three bouncing baby girls!

13)Are you Single/Taken/Married/Divorced?
still married!

Gosh..ten years ago..my youngest was 3...and I was watching High school basketball and working at the hospital. It seems like forever ago! And it is funny how my friends, for the most part, have remained the same! Steadfast and true to the end! I have to say..as many times as I have been someone's season or reason..I still have some awesome lifetimers! But I guess you have to go through those seasons and reasons to find your lifetimers. I have a few, cross my fingers, going to be lifetimers in mind!!! Did you check your cup today? Mine is still half full, though some may have sloshed out while I was checking it.
Look where you were ten years ago...even five years ago..are those still their still those same people who have been there for you forever???
Fabulous lunchtime tomorrow!!! I am excited!

Sunday, September 7, 2008


So I have really been thinking about my friendships lately. I mean I am a person who always analyzes people. It's what I do. But that's why I picked human resources. But anyway...friendships have always amazed me. Well females and friendships. For me..I am friendly with everyone..well at least I use to be. Lately I have learned how to preserve myself and just put energy in where it is required. My mom calls me the bridger. I often have so many friends from so many different things..that I try to "bridge" them all together, so i can hang out with everyone at the same time. Shelly use to always tell me I had more friends then I had time for..and for the most part that was true. That saying that I am totally popular..but I had friends from different parts of my life and trying to hang out with everyone often had me overbooked!

I am sure you guys have heard that poem about Friends for a Season, A Reason and a lifetime! I am a firm believer in it! I often find myself someones season or reason..and sometimes that hurts..but it is the course and I guess they needed me...so it was all part of God's plan. And not that I am going to shy away from Season or Reason friends..but I am for sure looking for the lifetimes! If I decide I want to be friends with you. I want it to be for a lifetime! I don't want to serve your purpose or be there cause you needed me....I want to be the person you call just because! I want to be that person that you see something on TV and totally have to reach for your phone and tell me about it. I want to be that person that you come over and watch our favorite TV shows. If we can't be in the same house..we spend the entire time texting each other!If we are neighbors or live on opposite coast..I want that friendship to be a lifetime. It sorta makes me upset to be someones reason or season though. I mean I love the seasons, but I am normally not ready for them to end.

I have to say I always try and stay true in each friendship. I am what I am. I talk too much..and am way too opinionated for my own good. I often say things before I think about it..and sometimes it may hurt your feelings. I make every attempt to bite my tongue and I often fail...but I am totally the person that you can come to and say.."heh I heard you said this about me" and I would be like..yea i said it. but that is just the way I am. I normally don't let people back me into corners and will be the first one to stand up for someone I care about. I know I know..some friend huh..but I am totally genuine in everything I do. I help you cause I want to. I love on your children cause I love to. I want to hang out cause I just want to have fun! Totally not saying I haven't screwed up friendships, but I have learned lessons and seriously if we couldn't find our way through it..then obviously our friendship wasn't worth it. Good thing we found out now before we wasted anymore time in it.

But females are like that..aren't they? Drama ridden, cat fighting...she saiders that often get too offended if you say something about their house, lifestyle, children or husband. And seriously I probably say far too many things about someones house, child, lifestyle and their husband. But as if I am not a target. Those who live in glass houses shouldn't cast stones. Have you met ry and I? We are living in a glass house everyday! I married a boy from the whitest place on earth in New England..we don't match one little bit..but seriously..we are happily married with three pretty rockstar children..comment and tease all you want...I am secure enough to know I love my life...minus my husband being gone...but I do love my life. I am lucky enough to be married to someone with a job that provides me the chance to spend moments with my children. He and I both think that someone needs to walk our children to their classroom each morning and be there waiting to pick them up. Someone has to pack their home lunch, if they want it, and irons their clothes. Not saying you have to do..but I want to. I don't always like that it I am that person, but tease all you want. I know Kelly always tells me I try and be super mom. But warm cookies in lunch boxes make ME smile. Ironed dresses and cute hairbows make reminds my children that I love being their mom. So make comments and tease all you want. I don't always make the right choices, but I am trying to make better choices when it comes to friends!

Moving to FL was a hard decision for me. I have some outstanding friends in Charleston and it hurt to move from them. But at least every six weeks or so until Feb of '09 we will be up there for ortho appointements! I am grateful to have friends here! I hate that they don't live in my neighborhood..but at least we are just a few exits away!

So to all my lifetime friends (I know you know who you are)
thank you for not making me a your lifetime! My cup is still half full because of you!
know that i love you and miss you everyday!

*So my cup is still half full*

1. Husband that I get to talked to everyday
2. Three rockstar/healthy daughters
3. Fabulous mother
4. people that love my children with every bit of their being
5. Great house
6. Great friends
7. House party invitations
8. No hurricane Hanna
9. Probably no Hurricane Ike
10. Road trip to Charleston planned

I mean seriously how could my cup not be half full!

Yesterday we a great day...the girls had their first soccer game of the year. #2's team lost but she scored...and Nanea's team won..but she didn't score a goal. They both had the greatest time. My oldest had to play other parent since I was busy coaching Traysea's team. So she made sure was with her team..in the right uniform and cleted up and ready to play! I am SO grateful for Tyra. She is so awesome at 13! Not that she wasn't awesome at 12..but you know...

Then after Kelly, Elicia, and Sunshine came to pick me up and we headed to Misty's baby shower! We had so much fun! Well at least I did. It was fun and it was just hanging out with great friends! My awesome 13 year old watched over her sisters and when I came home..there was not house mess! Just three girls dancing like they were crazy in my living room! Have to love them!

So my cup continues to be half full...I know there is going to be a day when I am going to need someone to pour something into my cup..but today My cup runneth over!


Thursday, September 4, 2008

Is your cup half full?

I think I have always been a half full type of girl. Ry on the other hand, is often the empty type of person..which is why I think God has placed us together! Lately Ry and I have been evaluating how lucky we have been! With him being in CT, at least for a few more weeks, and then off to VA for about five months, we are thinking about all the things that are going to happen while he is gone. Now when Ry and I got married...all those years ago...he was on aboat. It was normal for him to be home and then underway again. But then when Ryan left the boat and started school....five years ago....he's been home basically ever night. But studying like a mad man..but at least home everynight...there for birthdays and holidays...so this is the first time in forever basically, that there is a chance he won't be home. Luckily we have cleared out the birthdays for the girls for the year. He sorta made Tyra's..he came in Thursday and her bday was Monday. But anyway..so with Halloween..Thanksgiving..and Christmas coming up..ry is feeling the growing pains. In his 10 years in the Navy, Ry has only been gone for one Christmas. BUT can I really complain. As I even start to feel close to bad, I think about just how lucky we have been. Ryan has been there for the birth of everyone of our children. There are TONS of military families that have to go without their father on a regular basis. My brother is a Chief in the Navy and has missed the birth of two out of his three daughters..and had to come running off the boat for the last one. He has been around for the last six Christmas'. He has been around to coach soccer teams and shots at doctors appointments. My cup is absolutely half full! SO if Ry gets to his boat and we don't actually get to see him for the next five months..he got to come home Labor Day weekend. Plus at least I get to talk to him once a day. Not to mention that I am SO lucky to have moved some place where I already had a few friends. I could not imagine having to move some place and be without my husband and no friends.

So evaluate your cup! Count your blessings and be thankful! I am not saying that everyday needs to be a cup half full day..cause I know mine won't always be...but today it is! We skated by Hurricane Hanna..and with Ike on the horizon..we need to stay positive!!


Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Baby bliss

So today I got to go shopping for a baby shower present! my friend misty (hi misty) is currently pregnant with her second son...Spencer. now misty is married to jeremy and already have one fantabulously adorable son named Jack. Jack and I aren't exactly friends yet..but I can't wait us to be good friends. I have so many scrapbook page layouts floating around in my head..in need of a boy..and he is the perfect one. Plus I can't wait for misty to have spencer can i can just imagine the great newborn shots spencer is going to take....plus the sibling shots I plan to get of jack and spencer! I just feel birth announcements coming on.

Anyway...so misty's shower is saturday..and she reads my blog so I can't show you what I bought her..but I have to say..Kelly, Sunshine and I hopefully will light up misty's day! not that misty needs presents..since Jack is two she still has all his stuffs. so spencer is coming into a world more then prepared for him. but all i can say pottery barn kids..and this cute little shop called Lulu. Totally too expensive, filled with posh baby supplies..but I loved it. My kids love going to pottery barn and pottery barn kids. they love playing there for hours. they have all their pretend play out for the kids to touch and then beg me to buy it for them for Christmas or whom evers birthday is on deck. So when I made my purchase and announced it was time to go..the babies moaned. Of course they don't want to leave..I even want to play with their kitchen stuffs. It' s super fabulous. and It is not only kitchen stuffs...it's the stuffs that goes with it. Plus I was in that store for at least an hour and not once did my kids ask if I was done yet.

But baby shower shopping always makes me long for another child. I am not sure if every mom gets that, but I get it all the time. Where in my head, we are done. I mean we are going to struggle for now until forever dressing three daughters..not to mention three college tuitions...three cars..three weddings! So i know mentally that three is what we are good with. Plus pregnancy is not ideal to my body..so (insert sigh) three it will be! I love everyone of my daughters to death..but some days..I just wish I had a son. Now don't get me wrong..but I want a son I can watch play football. And go to watch play baseball..I know I know i have three daughters to go and watch play soccer and softball..but oh to have a son. I know I know..be thankful you have happy healthy children..but just a baby boy.

It's pretty funny..cause I have three nieces and three daughters. My oldest brother didn't have a son..my sister has no children...and then my baby brother is so far from thinking about conceiving! SIGH...so I don't even have a nephew. Ry's brother is still trying to get his life in order..so no son on that side. Ry's cousin Aaron..the only other Auger with children....has two girls. WHAT THE HECK! I guess it's a good thing..I don't know if I would know what the heck to do with a son. But Ry's generations was dominated by boys. Ry has I think it out of 11, 9 are boys. I thought I had some hope! It sorta all flashes back to the day when my mom said..."you wait till you become a mother...it is going to be three times as bad!" makes me think about what I say to my daughters. I would at least like to one day have a grandson!

So I am off to bed and hopefully dream newborn babies! How you cuddle them in and just breath in their scent. how they stare up at you and just gaze at you, while you talk like a fool to them. I miss those moments that my children and I shared. there is a great song by Na Leo Pilimehana. It is called "You don't remember, but I will never forget!" It's my mom's song to me..and mine to my daughters.....I wish I could link it for you...maybe I will try and put it in my playlist! It talks about moments you have with your children that they can't possibly remember. The first time you held them..the first time they smiled at you. All of those moments are ones you'll never forget. My kids LOVE to hear about those. Even my 13 year old. She loves to hear how I use to have to rub her back for her to fall asleep...or my 6 year old use to say how she loved to eat baby chickens. or my 5 year old who loves to hear that she never liked to nap. It is funny how so much of their lives, they just have no idea! It's amazing..so...(insert sigh) I am going to have to live through misty!

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

MY new years resolution so close to being broken

So at the start of this year I came up with a few things....
one was to want less. now i have yet to always be successful in this feat...oh yes it is a feat..but i am pushing though it all..so this is my next HAVE TO HAVE
this yummie!
help me!

Monday, September 1, 2008

He's leaving on a jet plane

So Ry is off safe and sound back to his temporary home in CT. It is funny when I tell people, that aren't military, that we are live here, but my husband lives in CT. The face I get is priceless. They they want to ask..but they are nervous to ask. I love it! It is hard for me to remember that there are people out there that never have experienced the military life. I mean for me..i grew up in it..and then lived in a state full of it..and then i married into it. For me, it is a way of life..but people around me..not so much. Also too, we live in a place not really close to base so I often forget that there might actually be people out there that aren't sure what the heck is going on....

Anyway...so we are having a little bit of ryan withdraw. Things that I had in mind to be achieved weren't totally accomplished..but we packed a lot of things into this weekend. And it sorta just came down to all of us hanging out..instead of really getting the house together. We did have one "meltdown" but weathered that storm and arrived to a semi solution.

So today we are suppose to be going to the St. Mary's Aquatic Center. I have heard great things..and then I have heard not so great things..but at least it is something for my herd to do! But we are sorta thinking of some other fun. We just don't know. Maybe we will find fun out there!