Friday, September 19, 2008

It didn't go over so well

So the baby thing didn't go over too well with the other participant!
I think I actually heard Ry pass out when I mentioned it!
But I love him, and I totally understand where he is coming from.
I am totally stemming from a pure heartfilled mothery place within.
When I close my eyes, I see my daughters, and hopefully my sons, tucked around me having movie night in my living room.
But he on the other hand sees a much larger car, more gas, 5 college tuitions, five cars, five weddings, and all the drama that goes with carting five kids to five different places!
Okay Mr. Practical.
My heart still hurts, but in all things, I know he is right. (Shhh..don't tell him that!)
Really it would be starting over.
This is the same space that I have between #1 and 2.
Tyra was five turning six when we had Traysea
Then 13 months later we had Nanea
Nanea is currently if by some miracle I concieve and carry to full term
then that would put us at July of '09 and Nanea will have just turned 6.
I would hate to have them all grow up seperately like that.
My youngest two would barely know Tyra.
She would be a whole 14 then 15 years older then.
The sibling connection would just not be there.
But the time the younger two even knew what was happening
she would be ready to be off to college!
So I guess I am going to have to side with Mr. Practical. (Shh...don't tell him)
So I am just going to focus on the positive
just where is my cup..because today I totally need a reminder!!! Right Vaiva!
SO...let's try for ten!!!
1. I have three beautiful healthy daughters! (That is always my number one)
2. I think my three girls are finally starting to get what being sisters are about!
3. It has been cool for two days! YUPPIE!
4. This weekend we have free tickets to the circus! Thanks kelly you are totally a superstar
5. Today I went to target with five children and it was drama free!
6. Today I could be there for a friend in need!
7. Today I had lunch with some new friends!
8. Got a great deal on a lunchbox at target...$2
9. The two babies got their halloween costumes!
10. Today I found out that Misty and I basically the same person!
Thank goodness for my OCD partner!!

Oh ten was easy..let's see if I have 15...

11. I have a husband who has a job that provides for us! Even with the price of gas a million dollars a gallon! Thanks Ry!
12. I have a baby sitter that can be paid with Chocolate covered Strawberries!
13. I have a mom that wants the girls to have Olive Garden for lunch tomorrow, so she slips me some dollars to take them!
14. It was cool enough that my children went outside to play with their friends this afternoon.
15. I have unlimited text messaging. Do you know I sent 2000 messages last month. I know I know..I have issues! Thanks MOM!

So I was able to make it to 15! I am sure there are a few more out there..but I will save those for another day! Overall I am bit down still, but that is cause I am girl that is use to getting what she wants..but I totally see Ry's side that's why we are married. If he didn't provide me that balance we were just skip through life!
Big sigh!

Oh and I forgot..I got this today..and thought it was funny!!!

1. I’ve come to realise that my butt: still no existent..I have feet..ankles..calfs..thighs..legs..then back...sorry guys..

2. I’ve come to realize that when I talk: the world stops..just kidding..sometimes it just too many words!

3. I’ve come to realize that if I love someone: then i will do anything for them

4. I’ve come to realize that I need: to be happy with what i have..and deal!

5. I’ve come to realize that I’ve lost: my family expansion battle

6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when: mr. practical appears!

7. I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk: then Synder's must be in town

8. I’ve come to realize that money: is required to function but necessary for happiness!

9. I’ve come to realize that my mother: the best mom anyone could ask for!

10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll probably always be: OCD and over protective. It is what I am!

11. I’ve come to realize that I have a crush on: Channing Tatum. He is all of me!!!

12. I’ve come to realize that the last time I cried was: yesterday, I was angry. It's how I cope!

13. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone: is my friend!

14. I’ve come to realize that when I wake up in the morning: It is always a start of a new day!

15. I’ve come to realize that before I go to sleep at night: I get a call from my mom!

16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking about: coming to terms with the right choices!

17. I’ve come to realize that babies: are always precious..but i have three pretty rockstar daughters and that is more then enough!

18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on myspace: i get nosy and start clicking around!

19. I’ve come to realize that today I will: well today is basically tomorrow i will start to deal with the choices. it is what it is...and that it is!

20. I’ve come to realize that tonight I will: sleep alone

21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow I will: be the best coach i can be..and maybe sneak in some OG lunch!

22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to: be the super mom i imagine myself to be!

23. I’ve come to realize that who is most likely to repost this is: some of my blogger friends that like to play fun games!

24. I’ve come to realize relationships: that are worth always make you feel like a superstar. I love my lifetime friends!

25. I’ve come to realize love: is the best present you can give!

26. I’ve come to realize my best guy friend: is Sean Jacob. But that is not new news...he is my go to guy friend. I know that sometimes that my husband hates that..but he knows I need to bounce things off another guy, before I say something to me..and really Sean's a girl..shhh...don't tell him!

27. I’ve come to realize my best girl friend: is my mom!

28. I’ve come to realize food: will always be my weakness..but live in moderation

29. I’ve come to realize that when I was a girlfriend: that i wasn't girlfriend material. I am still such horrible girlfriend material! good thing i became awesome wife material!

30. I’ve come to realize girls and boys: always have their opposite. There is a someone out there for everyone!

31. I’ve come to realize over the summer: we really can pack in tons of things in two and a half months!

32. I’ve come to realize heartbreak: is a learning process required to grow. It wallow..but survive!


Vaiva said...

I totally know how you feel. I don't like it when Mr. Practical is right too. And why are they always practical AND right? Such is life. Hope you are doing well, and I'm sure y'all know what's best for your family.

Misty said...

I'm glad to have you as an OCD partner as well! =)